Cold Nostalgia

Monday, April 6, 2009 @ 2:18 AM

I don't understand why i still can't get him out of my heart.. Ask me do you want a guy who can love 2 persons at a time to be your boyfriend? I answer yes if he will not cheat on me.. Ask me do you want a guy who dumb you because of another girl? I answer i don't know.. All is because i love him.. But i've already decided that i don't want.. So why i still think so much and care what is he thinking now.. I don't need to care anymore ma.. Because of this yesterday i suddenly had gastric and no appetite so i didn't eat much.. I don't know what i had decided few days ago is a right decision.. I'm afraid it's not cause nothing have changed and everything is still the same.. Things have became a little bad after i made my decision.. Does this mean i need more time? I want to know this answer.. I really don't know.. I don't wanna regret later..

Things have became so much better after my 2 years ago ex-boyfriend suddenly appear in my life.. He made me happy.. He made my appetite back.. I can be so happy this month is because of his sudden appear.. I feel like he is a miracle in my life.. But from the day before i think i'm back to the moody shanice.. I don't really know why.. I hope is because i think too much.. I don't wanna go back.. It sucks.. Don't want my gf to see me so moody and worry anymore.. Want everyone to be happy..

And about gf.. I think i'm wrong for this few days.. I didn't accompany you girls much this few days right? I apologize.. It's my fault.. I shouldn't treat you girls like this.. I'm sorry.. It's 2 20+ now.. If ling is still online, let's sleep.. Good night.. :)