Cold Nostalgia

Thursday, April 9, 2009 @ 1:39 AM

I don't wanna cry.. I don't want..

Told cha.. I told you i'm a cry baby.. I just know how to cry.. Last time you said to me i'm not.. But last night you asked me when i wanna stop crying.. You said cry cry cry.. And you asked me why i'm different from other girls.. Because other girls gonna say ok, i don't cry anymore, don't leave me alone.. But me, i said let me cry, close your phone if you don't want to hear me cry.. Now u know what kind of person i am?

I don't care if i'm escaping or avoiding whatever.. At least i can smile and be happy.. Can you see the different? Now nothing is getting better lately.. Everything is getting bad slowly.. Everything goes back to how it was like..

I feel sorry to you.. You really did a lot to make me happy and also you keep on trying your best to help me.. But, yeah, he is still in my heart.. I don't know why too.. Why do i sound so useless ah? I know nothing.. You also know, i'm using you to forget him when i started to have feeling for you.. We both hope to step forward.. We were getting better and better.. Then i'm feeling happier and don't wanna care so much anymore.. But what happened? Idk.. I'm afraid to know too.. You told me it is not right to like escape cause i'll never solve what is in my heart.. But i really don't wanna feel so stress although i already am..

Headache, feel like my head is full of many stuffs and gonna burst.. How fast, i got fever straight away after i stop crying and i feel dizzy.. When i stop crying, the sky started to rain heavily suddenly.. Hope i'll be okay and feel better tomorrow after i wake up.. "Don't think so much"..

Smile~ Everything will be fine.. I believe.. :)